Savior.Loves.Us
Have you ever met someone that just steps into your life and from that “Hi its nice to meet you my name is…” on, your life is forever changed? That someone that looking back or looking forward you simply can’t picture life being what it is, had you not met him or her?
I had that experience February 5th this year and the scary part of it is there are about a million reasons why it almost didn’t happen. But somehow, or should I say someone (thank you Jesus) allowed it to.
I spent the entire night with her and said no more than a few words here and there. I even came close to writing her off as nothing more than a friend of a friend. A face that I would soon forget and never question.
But for some reason in the last few moments of the night a door way was opened through a mutual passion for music. That twenty-minute conversation stirred up emotions inside of me I didn’t know existed and left me feeling like a nervous little boy asking for his kindergarten crushes phone number. Long story short… I got the number, and with it came a smile that I haven’t been able to wipe off my face since that day.
Telephone calls lasted till the wee hours of the morning as we played the fun and exciting game of “Can I tell you a secret…” Our hearts raced, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collected as we chuckled from time to time hearing about childhood memories.
Coffee shops, walks on the beach, adventures into the unknown, dinner and movie… Date by date, moment by moment. Our hearts raced, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collected as we smiled and shared life.
Holding hands, playing with one another’s hair, back rubs, and long hugs… Date by date, moment by moment. Our hearts raced, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collected as we whispered hints of future hopes.
Unpacking the closet of one another’s past, sharing the things you never dreamt of sharing, seeing that other person in all of their brokenness and choosing to accept and love them regardless… Date by date, moment by moment. Our hearts raced, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collected as we shed a tear remembering where we come from.
Prayers, fasting, scripture, missions trip, a week without talking separated by the Atlantic, our hearts longed for that other person… Date by date, moment by moment. Our hearts raced, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collected as the distance between us revealed the fact that we had fallen in love.
Love.
You see I thought I had fallen in it before. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew how to share it and receive it. I thought… . . wrong.
February 5th changed my life as true love introduced herself as Carly Williams. I couldn’t love her on my own strength if I tried. And to be honest I came to a point in my life where I wanted nothing to do with relationships. I was fully content for the first time with God and God alone. I woke up morning after morning excited and giddy to read my Bible and pray. I had fallen in love with the creator of the cosmos and I had no desire or need for anything or anyone else. And that’s what set the stage for everything.
This love that I share with the most beautiful woman in the entire world has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with Jesus Christ. I wake up on a daily basis and choose to read my bible and pray and before a “hello” or “good morning” can be shared with the woman of my dreams, I’m already connected and in tune with how she is doing. I see more and more on a daily basis how Christ loves his church as I am called to love her in that same way. It has been one of the hardest things to do but hands down the most rewarding experience of my life.
…Date by date, moment by moment. Our hearts race, excited, nervous, but our voices calm and collect as we learn more about how our Savior.Loves.Us
-Billy
